On What I Have Learned So Far This September

We’ve had a rocky start to the school year, with lots of ups and downs. Now that we are approaching the beginning of Autumn things seem to be settling down. Still there have been some important and beautiful things that I have learned.

 Top of the Switchbacks
Taking the time to be by myself up in the mountains is the most restorative thing I can do for myself, in a way that no walk around the city can. It is the silence that my mind craves, these days of rushing from home to campus to home to pick up Alder to studying, leave little space in my mind to process the bigger picture and to nurture myself.

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That when I get lost in all the small details of what I’m working on it is important to step back and look at where I am really going. But at the same time it is easy to get lost in “the future” where there are no imperfections. It is a careful balance between all of this.

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Knowing where I am going down the road clears the way of procrastination and detours. Though these big picture concepts are hard for seven year olds to grasp.

High Country Meadow
I need to trust my convictions about how to live my life. That people who try to sell me on the traditional model may be good hearted but they generally have a very narrow view of how the future should go. They will try hard to change my mind about the way I am trying to shift my life because they feel like they wither know better or think that we want the same things.

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When I reach a barrier inside myself take a step back and look to see where it comes from. Look deeply and then move forward (as I learned last night this is not a middle of the night thing to do). There is no benefit in pushing up against a barrier hoping to just knock it down. Instead it has to be understood and removed.

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When you do sit down let everything else flow away and focus.

New York part 1

Welcome to New York!

George Washington Bridge View
My River Up Close

They Insisted on lots of Pads in New York
Riverside Park Skate Park, where they insist on all the pads, insurance numbers, parent waivers, and have short hours.

Keeping you from skating
Alder: Why are there those pipes locked to the parts of the skate park?
Skate Park Attendant: To keep people from skating.

[the park is open only 5 days a week 11am to 7 pm, it was around 5 pm when this picture was taken]

On 5th Avenue Even the Dinosuars are Gold Plated
New York is truly a place of excess, they even plate their dinosaurs in gold.

Lego Clone Trooper
Visiting FAO Schwartz as a kid was a thrill, ever since it was sold the soul has gone out of it….at least there was Lego.

Fairytale
I know the world loves Central Park, but I grew up with it as my stomping grounds. I still come across views I’ve forgotten. The moment, the boy, the light, I know that feeling.

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Just right.

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You forget that most cities aren’t filled with slabs of granite.

Waiting
People talk of New York as a city that moves so fast, the thing they never tell you is how much time you spend waiting in New York, and it isn’t just the trains.

My Boy
After a week alone with his grandparents even waiting for a train with me could elitist a smile.

Ten Years Part 1

A little over ten years ago we all came together at the bottom of the lawn, a spot more commonly used for sledding than parties. You will all have to bare with me over the next week all of the photos are on disks and I want them someplace less fragile. So this being part one will be the ceremony. Part 2 will be the reception, those photos will have to wait until Sunday evening when I can use my father’s copy of the disk (ours is corrupted). All photographs, in the post were taken by Robert Tobey.

Getting Ready

Seating Collages

Flower Girl

Cousins

Chuppa

Down the Hill

A Promise

Ten Years Ago

An August Late Afternoon....2003

The Kiss

Forest Mirror

A walk in the country

I was not blessed
instead I paused on my own
letting the words fall away

until I could see.

the fracture between nature and self
does not exist

it is just a byproduct of taxonomy
and an echo of the coal choked industry
of two centuries ago
Darwin and Arkwright could only guess
where they would lead us.

letting the words fall away
I opened my eyes again
and the world was so vibrant.

Shavino

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When Soon Became Now

I’ve been in school for two weeks now and the rhythm of our weeks are only starting shape. I am having to remember what it means to study and do homework, the whole act of slowing down and focusing. As I walked home in the cold on Friday evening I realized how good it feels to be stretching my mind in a new direction, one where I am actually learning completely new things. To sit down with a compass and a straight edge feels like a privileged not a chore.

To celebrate beginnings, and sunshine, we went for a hike yesterday up in Eldorado Canyon. Hikes like this are made for looking at the world around us and making plans for the future. Of course we are more cautious now than we used to be with the plans. That is okay though, our plans are ones that we can actually reach, which is in the end so much better rather than watching grand plans vanish.

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Finally

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Happy Solistice

A Solitice Sunrise
The Solstice sun rose just as we arrived from Denver, sixteen hours of driving through the night.

The Last of the Sun
The final view of sun on this shortest day of the year.

Solstice Moon
An early moon.

Winter
The brilliance of winter in the desert.

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Last, a reminder that the next few days are a time for reflection, and a time for looking forward to a new year.